Wednesday, January 03, 2007

An interlude

If you have noticed a change in the frequency of posting lately, then to you I apologize. It's not my lack of passion that has changed, nor my desire to tell you all about it. The amount of desserts I have produced this month is extreme, some refinements of recipes in my book, some new additions that are worth keeping around. Many classes taught, cookies made, and menu items developed.

But along side my own exciting developements, I have been struggling every day along side my mother. Just a month past her 55th birthday, she is coming to the end of a 4 year battle with a very agressive and debilitating form of Parkinsons desiese called striato-nigral degeneration. She suffered through the kind of degeneration that took something from her every month. From fine motor skills, to balance, walking, talking, swallowing, and finally breathing, she held her head up high as all these human qualities slipped away from her.

I have been by her side managing her care for the last 2 years, day in, day out. It's been nothing but a blessing to have spent so much time with her and been able to give back as much of me as she needed. As her lungs weaken and struggle to take in oxygen and expel carbon dioxide, my sisters and I are spending as much time with her as we can, and the rest with eachother.

Forgive the lapse in posting, bear the month or more it takes to for my fingers to grow nimble and my mind to warm up to writing. And if you can, send your prayers for my mother, Denise, who has been so brave in the face of such a terrible desiese.


Blogger NakedDesserts said...

Hi Dana,

My prayers are with Denise for her to live gracefully and with as much dignity as possible. And also requesting God to give you and your siblings the strenghth to power through this experience.

Take care.


January 03, 2007 11:16 PM  
Blogger Astrid said...

I only know you through your blog, which is wonderful, but I wanted to wish you all the best in your brave support of your mother. It must be incredibly hard but also rewarding. We'll be happy to read your next posts if and when you get the time to write next.

January 04, 2007 4:42 AM  
Blogger lee said...

I don't know what to say except I'm sorry. You are a wonderful daughter!

January 04, 2007 7:26 AM  
Blogger Lis said...

Coming from a stranger in Ohio that loves to read your blog - your mother, yourself and your family will be in my prayers.

January 04, 2007 9:51 AM  
Blogger Pig wot flies said...

I've never met you either, but my prayers are with you and your family.

January 04, 2007 10:12 AM  
Blogger Anita said...

Oh, Dana... I'm so sorry. I hope your time with your mother and your family is filled with bright moments that make the sadness bearable.

January 04, 2007 11:20 AM  
Blogger Anita said...

My thoughts are with you and your family - I'm glad you have each other for support during this time.

January 04, 2007 2:05 PM  
Anonymous Alex said...

Dana - my prayers are with both of you. Its so hard when the child becomes the carer especially having to come to terms with such a cruel disease.

Take care of yourself too

January 04, 2007 4:13 PM  
Anonymous maura said...

My best to you and your family.


January 04, 2007 6:36 PM  
Anonymous peabody said...

I'm so very sorry, no one should have to go through that. :(

January 05, 2007 12:33 AM  
Blogger Seattle Tall Poppy said...

Dana...2006 was an amazing year...with plenty of ups and downs in your world. I have such a tremendous amount of respect and admiration for you. And I'm so grateful I had the chance to meet lovely Denise. Stay strong...and give your mom a kiss from me! ~T

January 05, 2007 6:01 AM  
Anonymous Liz said...

Dana, I'm thinking of you and your mom and sending my love. The photo of you two at your wedding looks so lovely... I am so glad that she was able to be present with you for that. Love, Elizabeth

January 05, 2007 7:21 AM  
Blogger Julie said...

No worries about the posting. Clearly your family is the top priority. Prayers and best wishes to you and your family.

January 05, 2007 8:28 AM  
Anonymous Neil said...

I can't really add anything to what others have said above, but I do wish you and your mother the best. I am in awe of how well you are handling the whole situation. Just remember to take care of yourself and allow your friends and family to take care of you when you can.

January 05, 2007 6:58 PM  
Blogger shuna fish lydon said...

I understand this completely. I have been where you are now, but without the courage to say it as truthfully as you have spoken.

thank you for inspiring, continually, whether it be in the kitchen or in life. my thoughts are with you all.

January 06, 2007 2:07 AM  
Anonymous fiona bizwaps said...

Darling Dana,

What a moving post, it brought tears to my eyes. You are one amazing chica that I am glad I was able to spend time with when I lived in Seattle.

Keeping you, your mum and your family in my thoughts,

January 06, 2007 6:12 AM  
Blogger chronicler said...

Dana, Thank you for sharing this part of your life. Most of us who blog rarely share so eloquently. May you have the strength to endure, and when you don't your siblings are there to buoy you up. May your mother find peace and know of your love for her.

January 06, 2007 4:44 PM  
Blogger cuisinier said...

Hello Dana, well, you know that I too have been through a very similar situation, and the pain that goes along with that part of our lives. I share in the sorrow with you and only wish the best for you and your family. In the end, you must know and believe in your heart that there is a better place than here for her. My prayers are with you. Bill

January 08, 2007 9:14 PM  
Anonymous ms.proust said...

I've talked to Traca about phat duck & how I have always really admired your exceptional writing skills. But to know that you are an exceptional human being as well has me yearning for more of your inspirational excerpts.

I wish you hope, strength & peace in the new year. -Catherine

January 11, 2007 5:21 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello from Belgium. I just discovered your blog through Do You Know The Muffin Man?. Best of luck with your mother. Being there is all it takes. I am reading a good and readable book on old age and suffering: Still Here, by Ram Dass.

January 15, 2007 6:49 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you and your family, I wish the best for all of you R.G.

January 15, 2007 10:17 PM  
Anonymous Erin said...

I'll pray for you tonight.
Hang in there.

January 20, 2007 10:53 PM  
Blogger Karin said...

I say hallo from Sweden. Came here Google-searching.

When you have to become a "parent" to your own parent, that is problably going to be one of the most painful time in your life.

I wish you all strength in the world.

January 21, 2007 4:36 AM  
Anonymous awoz said...

It is the first time that I visit your blog and I am very touched by your personal strugle.
You are a good daughter :) Your mother is blessed....

I'll pray for you all tonight.

PS: your reicpe are very nice also:)

January 25, 2007 12:23 PM  
Blogger Dana said...

Thank you all for your kind and supportive words. My mother died on january 4th, and I miss her more every day that passes. But as she taught me, I am taking every day as it comes, and feel lucky to have loved her and been her daughter.

January 29, 2007 2:32 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry, I lost my Mom 6 years ago, she was 56. It was awful, and I miss her, and think about her often. Take care and remember all the good times you shared.

February 02, 2007 4:41 PM  

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